hard and soft

When I got out of bed this morning all I could think about was crawling back into bed after I got the kids dropped off at school.

As I made the kids their hot chocolate, breakfast, and lunches I tried to justify crawling back into bed.

I could use the rest.

I will exercise tomorrow.

My allergies are really bugging me.

It’s raining.

I also thought about how my body has been feeling soft and my heart has been feeling hard.

I want my body to feel hard and my heart to feel soft.

I want to be in better physical shape and be kind, loving, and forgiving on the inside.

I reminded myself that the best way to change that is to do something about it.

I put on my running clothes.

I dropped the kids off at school.

I grabbed my running partner, Odyssey.

I did what I know will help my body become hard and my heart become soft.

I did something about it.

I spent an hour with a good friend.

I communed with nature.

I got rained on.

I saw a baby duckling.

I added an extra loop to my route.

I sang Pharrel, Maroon 5, Katy Perry, Bruno Mars, Cee Lo, Robin Thicke, Daft Punk, Taio Cruz, Jay-Z, and Macklemore songs out loud.

When I got home, I put fresh sheets on my bed…and made it.

home is…hard and soft.

 

 

 

not on the “to do” list

Yesterday, I wrote out a “to do” list. Something I used to do on a daily basis. Always a notebook with my to do’s…somewhere along the line I got frustrated with all of the things I was not able to cross off the list because I got sidetracked, or the kids needed me, or I just put too much on my list.

My list was short…

  • run
  • shower
  • grocery store
  • car wash
  • vacuum car

I had 3-1/2 hours to accomplish everything on my list while both kids were in school.

As I dropped down the hill into the park near the river, I saw two bald eagles fly overhead.

Minutes later, a great blue heron.

Song birds were chirping and flitting through the woods.

I rounded the corner along the river and a hummingbird dive bombed me on the way to bright pink blossoms on a shrub along the trail.

Before the railroad tracks, I slowed down to look in the pond where many ducks and geese hang out in the winter. There was another great blue heron…fishing.

I crossed the bridge and ran by the fenced dog park. Happy dogs were barking for their owners to throw the ball one more time.

I looped back through the forest path along the river. I had it all to myself.

I crossed back over the river, then under the train tracks to peek at the great blue heron again. Still fishing.

Around the corner I ran into one of my friends from our Friday playgroup. This was the second day in a row that I had unintentionally run into one of me sweet friends.

I finished the run through the park and headed up the hill back to the road. As I approached the warehouse buildings past the water treatment plant, I looked up at the cell phone tower to see one of the Osprey guarding their nest. I saw them working on it over the weekend. Suddenly, it flew down into the nest…and I noticed another Osprey fly by.

I walked to the intersection and pushed the button for the walk signal. Right before I was going to cross I took a look back at the cell phone tower as one of the birds took off. It flew away and then up into the sky. Two bald eagles followed. And, there was another pair of Osprey in the sky,

I walked back to the soccer field behind me and sat on a bench. Watching in awe. The five birds soared through the air.

Higher and higher.

It was like a magical dance.

They were calling and swirling.

The two bald eagles eventually flew to the west.

The pair of Osprey eventually flew to the east.

The single Osprey that flew out of the nest flew back to the cell phone tower.

I’m never going to be the fastest runner.

I’m never going to run a marathon…probably not even a half marathon.

I am going to remember that run.

 

I got through the first three things on my list.

I still need to get my car washed and vacuum the kettle corn off the floor from our ride home from the tulip farm.

 

BUT…

I watched baby girl play at her school playground in her princess dress with her friends.

I walked the little guy’s bike to his school so he could ride it home yesterday afternoon with me and baby girl.

I prepared dinner in advance so we could eat together at the dinner table…for the second night in a row!

 

Those things were NOT on my “to do” list, but were important parts of my day.

 

I haven’t written a “to do” list for today, but this morning I walked the little guy to school.

He saw two snails.

Baby girl and I walked home…SLOWLY.

We saw a great blue heron.

 

Those were important parts of my day.

 

Sometimes, the things that are most important to get done are not on a “to do” list.

 

home is…the things that are not on a “to do” list.

 

 

 

 

 

time to catch up

It’s time to catch up a bit, don’t you think?

spring 22

{first}earthquake

City map

YES.

There was an earthquake here last night…and we slept through it.

I guess a lot of people in our area felt it. So crazy.

{second}spring break

The day after we went skiing we drove 90 minutes from home in the opposite direction…

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We stopped at Camp 18 for breakfast.

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Then we hit Cannon Beach.

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It’s been YEARS since we had been to the coast. Ridiculous, right?

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It’s only 90 minutes away!

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Lorelai was really too young to remember the last time we were at the coast.

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She loved it!

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We spent less than an hour on the beach, but the trip was well worth it. I love that we were skiing on Mt. Hood one day and running from the waves the next. So blessed to call Oregon home.

{third}at home

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The tulips are in full bloom in our front yard. I am pretty sure that I want to add a bunch more colors for next year. I just love tulips.

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We are starting to spend a lot more time outside. It’s awesome.

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We started seeds for our vegetable garden. Giving it a try this year instead of buying already started plants. The kids love squirting the dirt with the water bottle each day. I am hoping we will see green sprouts sometime this week!

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Speaking of green, there’s a lot of it sprouting all around the neighborhood. The grass in the backyard needs a little help (always a battle with the shade, the acidic soil from all the pine needles, and the dogs and kids on the grass in the muddy winter). The white on the ground is wild cherry blossom petals that snow down from a huge wild cherry tree in our neighbors yard.

{fourth}out and about

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We took Ben for a walk at the dog park near our house yesterday.

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The trillium are blooming throughout the forest floor.

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The kids love exploring and I can’t wait to more of this with them over the summer!

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{fifth}adventure

Yesterday evening was beautiful. We should have been upstairs doing a bath and a shower, but we played outside for a while longer.

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They are so silly together. They really bonded over Spring Break. It’s pretty amazing to watch them together. They have their moments of nastiness, but they really are great friends. I am so thankful that they have eachother.

It’s supposed to be mostly sunny and 73 degrees today, so I’m planning to take the little guy out of school early so the three of us can go on an adventure.

home is…spring in the beautiful pacific northwest.

 

 

 

when it rains…

…it pours.

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OR,  like we say around these parts…it Portlands!

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So,  you put on your Poppa’s muck boots, your fuzzy hat, and go jump in some puddles!

home is…dancing (or jumping) in the rain.

february

No matter how long the winter, spring is sure to follow.  ~Proverb

It’s always a tough month for me.

It’s like the adrenaline that is left from the holidays of last year pushes me through January, Valentine’s Day gets me through mid month, and then I crash.

And, sometimes, it feels like MY world crashes in around me.

MY world.

MY world is different from your world, which is different from everybody else’s world.

We all have our struggles.

We all have our triumphs.

They are not the same.

My struggles are smaller than some, but bigger than others.

My triumphs are bigger than some, and smaller than others.

The struggles seem to repeat themselves…and I wish they wouldn’t.

It’s like the record repeating itself, groundhog day, our washer that won’t finish a cycle, a bad habit.

I want it to be different this time.

I want more triumph, so next time there will be less struggle.

home is…breaking bad habits.

 

 

oh boy

I spent last weekend in Colorado so that I could co-host a baby shower at my mom and dad’s home.

boys love toys {a baby shower}

I was in charge of the invitations, decorations, and activities.

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My mom provided a beautiful venue, and with help from my aunt, delicious food to snack on!

It all came together on a sunny, Saturday afternoon in the Colorado foothills.

I have to say that i think it turned out fabulous!

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The main decoration was actually our activity of decorating onesies for the baby.

Vintage toys, bright pendant banners, tissue puffs, paper lanterns, and scrapbook paper flags were scattered around the food and activities for extra pops of color.

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The decorating a onesie activity took most of the first hour, but was a great ice breaker for a large crowd of people.

Once most of the guests were done with the onesie activity they began to eat and  fill out a “Wishes for Baby” sheet that the parents can make into a book or put in a scrapbook.

The last 45 minutes were spent watching the baby momma open the gifts. So much fun!

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Best of all…I got to spend time with some of my favorite ladies that day! My mom, sister, niece, aunts, and cousins!

I will follow up next week with the details about how I made the decorate a onesie activity pretty easy for a big crowd of people, and the rest of the details about the invites and activities!

Stay tuned!

home is…celebrating new babies.

grumpy old men

Our house has three of them.

Well, technically, they aren’t men.

They are two dogs and a cat.

Ben, our oldest lab, turns 14 this week.

Odyssey will be 10 on the same day.

Hobbes, our cat, will be 14 in March.

They are a lot of work right now.

Ben doesn’t know if he is coming or going…the poor guy. He wanders aimlessly through the house. Click. Click. Click. The sound of his overgrown nails on the floor is enough to drive you insane. He soils his bed routinely, hasn’t gone up to the second floor in almost two years, and barks outside because it is hard for him to get back up on the deck once he goes down onto the grass. His whole body is stiff. He can’t see well at all. And, I am pretty sure he can’t hear much of anything either. I wonder about his quality of life.

Odyssey has been having some major incontinence issues since late November. We treated him for a UTI. It got better, but then came back. We put him on a second round of antibiotics and had a more sensitive urinalysis done. They found no bacteria. No infection. So, we recently started him on an incontinence drug. A 10-14 day trial. We are 5 days in. It’s not working yet. We are washing his bedding daily as it is soaked every morning. And, he sneaks up onto the kids beds if their doors aren’t closed, so their bedding gets soaked, too. To make matters worse, the washer won’t finish a cycle and it takes forever to get through laundry (the good news is that we have a part on order to hopefully fix that). I am hoping and praying that suddenly this medicine starts to work in the next five days. If not, we are in for seeing a specialist for more imaging to find out what is going on with him. I don’t even want to think of the possibilities.

Hobbes. Our little patient, diabetic kitty. Right now he is just on a prescription diet and we don’t give him injections. It seems to be ok. The good news is that he is no longer peeing all over the house since we got our new floors in. He misses his litter box occasionally, but I now use “wee-wee pads” around his litter box and that soaks up the mess. Hobbes is always the last to get fed and I find him sleeping in my bathroom sink because he falls asleep waiting for somebody to turn on the water for him to drink. He gets grumpy with the dogs. In fact, as I was typing this he was guarding the stairs and would’t let Odyssey past. Just like a grumpy old man.

Lately, I have been impatient with all of them. It feels like every ounce of energy is spent cleaning up messes (theirs and the kids).

I don’t want to let Ben out…AGAIN…so he will, moments later, want to come right back in.

I don’t want to hear Hobbes meow for me to turn on the bathroom sink so he can drink from the faucet.

I don’t want to walk into my bedroom and smell urine on Odyssey’s soaked bed…and have to do another load of laundry.

What I NEED to do is…

take Odyssey for a run to clear my head, get some fresh air, and the exercise I so badly need so I can be patient.

snuggle Hobbes and just turn on the faucet so he is happy.

give Ben a “mommy massage” like I used to do when he would come back from a big hunting weekend with Ryan.

The time will come when there is not a dog to run with, a cat meowing for food or water, and a dog that is barking at the door to be let out or in.

There won’t be soiled beds to wash or a litter box to scoop.

When we moved to Oregon eight years ago we came out here with all of of belongings…including three dogs and two cats. We said goodbye to Murphy in 2009 and Oak in 2010.

Sadly, I see more goodbyes in our near future.

Right now, I’m going for that run with Odyssey.

home is…taking care of our four legged fuzzy faced friends.

something fun

you know what i want to accomplish this year?

other than my one word, order.

i want to go away with my husband…for a vacation.

a night.

maybe, a whole weekend.

or,  dreaming big here, even longer!

we have not been anywhere…ALONE, just the two of us, since february 2009.

that’s FIVE years.

FIVE.

YEARS.

he’s been away on his own.

i’ve been away on my own.

we’ve been on vacations as a family.

but, we haven’t been on a vacation (or even a night away) as a couple since BEFORE baby girl was born.

that’s crazy!

seriously.

i’m planning something.

something fun.

home is…getting away as a couple.