A lot has been going on the last two weeks. We found out we are having a baby girl, my 97 year old grandmother passed away, we became a two car family and coordinated the transport of a car from Oregon to Colorado, we moved the little guy to his “big boy” room, we had new carpet put in the house, and today we had to say goodbye to our beautiful little kitty, Murphy.
It seems that every time I sit down to write something that the right words don’t come out. I guess that’s why I don’t write for Hallmark. I want to be deep and meaningful, but I am at a loss. The ups and downs of life come at us all the time, but the last couple of weeks they have come with lightning speed. Some of the events were planned or “expected”. Others, like the loss of our sweet Murphy, came on suddenly and have been quite a shock to the system.
The good news is that we have a healthy baby girl on the way, the little guy is sleeping well in his new room, and we have beautiful new carpet. The hard stuff is dealing with the loss of Grandma and, right now, Murphy. And, while dealing with all of these emotions, my house is not put back together and that will have to wait until the weekend after Ryan returns from Seattle.
I am on a roller-coaster of emotion due to my fluctuating pregnancy hormones as it is, and I am feeling a bit lost in transition.
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stephany taddeo 
Maybe you should write for Hallmark, I think you said it well…”I am feeling a bit lost in transition.” Maybe “transition” is actually a place that grabs us sometimes and it seems hard to get out of. Sometimes life sucks. (Maybe that could be a new line of cards!)
I know you had a really hard day today. I hope that after a weekend of putting your house back in order that you will start to feel like your life is back in order too.
xo
Tracy
I think you are very brave just to write down your feelings, but that is what this new (to me) blog thing is all about. I believe I can honestly say “now you get it!” You hit the nail on the head … life IS transition … constant transition. Sometimes it is silent and hidden, other times it is very transparent and brutal. You have had a roller coaster ride of emotions the last few weeks. Kitties come and go, even grandmothers come and go. We are all OK. You have the best gift to remedy any sorrow right in your growing tummy! Take care of that little girl, focus on her and we will all celebrate life with her in September! Maybe we can get her a new kitty too. I love you, Dad
Thanks Tracy & Topher. Life IS all about change. Just feeling a bit lost right now. Today is a new day, however.
I feel your pain, Rob and I know what you are going through and although the hormones are not quite the same we can certainly relate. I wish I could be there to get you Tylenol or give you a couple of hours to get yourself together-mentally or physically as I know how showers have to be taken quickly enough that nothing can be too damaged by a toddler. It’s odd that even when transitions are expected they are never what you thought they’d be and usually come with a lesson or gift that you didn’t know you needed. I love you and am here for venting sessions toddlers permitting.